tomorrow's free time!!

tomorrow will be the last day of final exam!!
damn!!this is what i've been waiting for the whole week
and
finally..it come at last
LoL
here's the plan
after we finished the test,i'll hang out with my friends
i know my mom wont let me driving by my self
except if i go to school
so,i'm going to take the car with me
and hopefully
my mom don't about know it..LoL
and for the last day
it is very hard subject (for me)
well
it's not hard
i'm just lazy to study
LoL
i haven't study yet
and i don't know what to learn
that's another factor that makes me more lazy..LoL
i hope i have enough time to finished it and pass the test
i'm just hoping tomorrow's plan will be great
without that freak girl!!

that freak !?!

oo ya!!
do you know about her??
well, i guess u don't cause i haven't speak a word about her, right?
she's weird
actually she's not weird but i think she is
cause she likes to show off
very very very very show off!!
(man!!do you have a mirror??)
she like to sing in a class to show us she has a great voice
(which her voice is so lame and like a B*TCH!!)
she like to act like she's the smartest in the class
(which she doesn't..well,me and my friends,who don't like her too,got a better score than her)
she like to wear a tight shirt and some girly stuff
(which made her look more fat than anyone else and her ass become more bigger cause that tight things)
she like to make a weird voice or laugh
(which like she wants to get attention in a class..owh please!!!)
yup!!
the point is
i don't like her and hate her very much
well
she doesn't have any problem with me
yet....but i still hate her..
LoL
i mean..i have some problem with her
but not that big
like,when i was speaking with my friend
and she don't like that
then she ask my friend (the one who i spoke with)
to go somewhere ..e.g toilet
i mean
come on!!i was discussing about something here
don't be such a disturbing girl!!
and i really don't like if she's show off about her car
she's driving herself
and when she's driving
man!!very slow even the street was not so crowded
it's like i'm gonna be old woman after we arrived

and another case between me and her
was happening today
that's when the test was not start yet
when i came,i saw her with my friend (i'm OK with it)
looked like they don't understand something
and my friend asked me (which understand it)
when i was explaining to my friend
she didn't listen to me (i don't have a prob with that)
but the prob is
when i finished explain it
she ask my friend to explain it again to her
than my friend said to her
"just now anast explain it..why u don't listen..now i have to explain it to you"
yup!!why don't you listen to me from the beginning
please don't be such an *ssh*le
don't act like you'r the prettiest girl
the sexiest girl
or whatever
especially in front of me

if i could, i would sing this song for you

I can honestly say
You've been on my mind
Since I woke up today, up today
I look at your photograph all the time
These memories come back to life

And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember the simple things
I remember till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget is goodbye

I woke up this morning
And played our song
And through my tears sang along
I picked up the phone
And then put it down
Cause I know I'm wasting my time

And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember the simple things
I remember till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget is goodbye

(and this part of song is REALLY NOT GOING TO happen to me)
Suddenly my cell phone's blowing up
With your ring-tone
I hesitate but answer it anyway
You sound so alone
I'm surprised to hear you say

You remember when we kissed
You still feel it on your lips
The time that you danced with me with no music playing
You remember the simple things
We talked till he cried
You said that your biggest regret
The one thing you wish I'd forget
Was saying goodbye

Saying goodbye

Oh, goodbye

by miley cyrus - goodbye

did miracle already happen to me?

today is a lunar new year
(btw, happy lunar new year all)
at midnight before Lunar new year
i send a sms to several my friends to say happy lunar new year
well
of course i already prepared a sms for him
(even though is much shorter and just wrote "(some Chinese language) happy lunar new year..GBU (my name)")
at that day i was having my 1st day of final exam,ecomomics
when i already finished my work and sit outside and wait for my friends
i received a sms, and when i read where i get the sms from
IT'S FROM HIM!!!
(to be honest) AND I'M SOO EXCITED
at the first time, he just replied with an ordinary sms
but when i replied ASAP (ugh!!)
the more we sms-ing, the more our language became more close
we talked like it's used to be
he remember about the time when he came to my home
and my dog ate his sandal..LOL
I REALLY MISS that time
i wish our story never ends
but the truth is not..
but at least..can we be friend again?
and if we can, can we be more than friend?
well..i don't think it will happen
but i'm glad we talked each other even through sms for a while
yeaah..i'm glad

about HIM

there's not much to tell about him
the thing is
after i broke up with him for about one and a half year
i still love him
i still miss him
i still want him back
not as a friend i want
i want more than that
but i know
it is not going to happen
and it will not be ever happen to me
and the worse thing is
even i know it will never happen to me
but i am STILL hoping it for happen
silly of me!!

tragedy in one night..one of my mom's idiotic

last night was a big disaster that happened to my family
and today some good some really not good
so let me tell u all of it
last night, me and my family were having some kind of family gathering
but some family members did not come
and all of us went to my grandma's house
i thought that night, every body will happy
and it's not happened like i was imagined

oh yaa
i forgot to mention this
at the first time
there is a problem happened already before i came there
my mother's older sister got pregnant AGAIN
before they got married first
and the guy who made her pregnant
has already have 4 children and not yet divorce with his first wife
but they live separately
well,i don't know how much exactly he has a wife
but as far as i know (or maybe HE DIDN'T TOLD US HOW MANY HE GOT)
he just have one..
and she IS STILL LIVING IN MY GRANDMA'S HOUSE!!
my mom's really angry with her and the guy who made her like that
what my mom wants is if they want to live together even without grandma's and the other family member's bless
they have to get out from my grandma's house and find somewhere else to live in with her kid, her new baby, and of course with that bastard..
let's continue the story

when we all arrived at grandma's
the situation and condition is still good
so much love in the air
(but not my mom's love..LOL)
then my mom's sister came and also bring that THINK (i mean her BF, almost her husband,btw..well,they had sex more than once i think..LOL)
she's waiting outside 'cause she's too afraid to see my mom
(know you know how evil my mom is, even her own older sister afraid to her)
and then, that guy came to the house and offer a shake hand to my mom
(wow!!what a good move)
without saying anything nice,my mom said
"GET OUT!!"
(with her face which is like a devil?? well, i think so..LOL)
and he stepped outside and my auntie asked him to leave the house
when she's gone..the unbelievable thing my mom did is
YELLING at my GRANDMA!!!
she's just yelling, yelling, and yelling to grandma
until grandma was out of control
she just screamed like someone wants to kill her
and said to her self
"GOD!!PLEASE TAKE ME NOW!!I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE!!I WANNA DIE!!"
me and the rest of my cousins and nieces, and also my dad (which are not involved to this problem) just watched and listened..
my other auntie who's younger that my mom
try to settle down her mother in her room
then not long enough me and my cousins and nieces
came to grandma's room and try to make her happy
we laughed together, share some funny stories they have
it was so fun!!we were laughing all the time..
but my grandma didn't smile at all
but somehow i know
she feel a little bit warm in her heart

sometimes i can't think why my mom can do such thing like that
i mean..it was very horrible..

about my mom

i believe this is not suppose to be the first time i hate my mom
just because i start to write from the middle of my stories
so i will called it as chapter 1 and i'll begin with intro my mom

if you don't know who she is
just by looking at her, i bet you'll think that
she is a good women..very caring with her kids
and as we know she always have a problem with my dad
i don't know how
but she can made the whole story goes wrong
and make people thinks that my dad's the evil one
well, i can only say "THEY ABSOLUTELY DO NOT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT MY DAD!!AND ALSO MY MOM!!"
personally, my dad is a good man
but my mom? i think she's not
she's selfish, she's like to say something without thinking about it first
she's like to throw things when she's angry
yup!!like an animal or a beast..LoL
but sometimes i also hate my dad
but not for a long time
my dad is not selfish
he always give me and my bro some money
if we're run out of cash
and in the other hand, my mom, never ask if we still have money or not
so everybody who know who she is, have not know who she really is