BACKGROUND

this is my background of my life
this is why i become like this
and this is why sometimes i hate every single living things
we all already know
if they got stress or frustration
maybe they think the only way out is...
what???
they do drugs
they do sex before married
they run away from their family
and you know what??
i'm one of those story
well,it's not that bad
but each person has their own story and this is mine
which i called nothing
to be honest
u can say that almost every week something bad happened to my family
both my parents yelled each other, they're beat each other
and i don't like that..
well, who does??
that's why i don't like my family that much
and i haven't feel my parent's care about me
i think they do care, but not as much as they think
(but now, my dad is not that bad, he was a bad dad for a long time ago..but NOW HE IS A GOOD DAD FOR ME..even sometimes he really pissed me off..but he's ok)
and this is only the beginning
than i grew up and at that time i was in junior high school
and someone liked me..
from that moment,i felt like i was special to someone
i felt like being love by someone who i love
and yup!!
we had a relationship about 9 months and we broke up
waw!! i was really sad at that time
and i never felt like i was being love by someone again
but, i'm just a kid at that time and don't understand what love really means
and i was really stupid for falling in love with that J*RK!!
yeah..stupidity..
then when i was in high school
i met this boy..
at the first time i saw him
i don't have a feeling to him yet of course..LOL
but after we know each other
i started to pay attention to him
not so cute for my friends but cute enough for me
not so handsome for my friends for very handsome for me
we're talking by phone or sms-ing
than that feeling fill my heart
a feel that made me felt like i'm special to him
a feel that made me felt like he love me and i love him
and really like that felling
than our relationship became more close
we were like BF and GF but he's not ask me to his GF yet
it's about half of year we having that kind of relations
and we had the real one
but not for a long time
just last for 3-4 months
then we broke up and never speak a word again
even until more than 1 year we broke,
and i'm still thinking about him till now